ECHOES OF LONELINESS
Part 21 – Giving Up
I went to the liquor room and got hold of a bottle of strong whiskey. This will be my first time drinking alcohol. I’ve seen people drinking alcohol when troubled so I also want to do it. Hopefully my pain will disappear. This loneliness is killing me. Why did my parents die? Do they even know the things I am going through?
Alicia walked in.
Alicia: Who gave you permission to touch the alcohol in this room?
Me: I gave myself permission
Alicia: You didn’t ask me to…
Me: Just shut up, Alicia
Alicia: Or else what?
Me: Or else I’ll make you
Alicia: I am not scared of you
Me: Do you think that I am scared of you?
Alicia: You should be
Alicia: Because I am older than you
Me: Oh, shut up
Alicia: Leave this room
Me: I am not going anywhere
Alicia: (Yells) GET OUT, I SAID!!!
Me: Don’t yell at me
She pulled me by the clothes and made me very angry. I got up from the chair and beat her up. Out of anger I smashed the bottle of whiskey on her head.
She lost conscious and I must say that she was losing a lot of blood. I thought that I’d feel sorry or get scared but I didn’t. I honestly don’t know what happened to me.
I got another bottle of whiskey and sat down. I started drinking again.
Joshua and Joseph walked in. They were so shocked to see Alicia lying on the floor.
Joseph: Wame, what happened?
JS: What did you do to her?
Me: Who’s that?
JS: What? Are you out of your mind?
Me: What are you doing here? Do you live here?
JS: This is also my orphanage. My surname is Samuels
Me: Just leave me alone
JS: Joseph, call Rita
Joseph: What will Rita do? Are you crazy, Josh? We must call the doctor
JS: Okay, fine
Joshua called the doctor.
Me: JS, tell your girl to stay away from me
JS: Alicia is not my girl
Me: Well when she wakes up you must tell her to stay away from me
JS: What exactly happened here?
Me: Ask Alicia
JS: But she’s unconscious
Me: I am also unconscious
JS: Talking to you is a waste of time
Me: I feel the same way about you
He carried Alicia out of the room.
Joseph came closer to me. He took away the bottle of whiskey and kissed my forehead.
Me: What’s going on? Why did you do that?
Joseph: What happened to you?
Joseph: Did you really want to kill her?
Me: Leave me alone, Joseph
Joseph: Won’t you talk to me?
Me: About what?
Me: You are a monster, what’s there to talk about?
Joseph: I am sorry for slapping you
Me: You can do it again, I really don’t care
Joseph: I slapped you out of anger
Me: No, you slapped me because you are a monster
Joseph: I am not a monster
Me: Then what are you?
He kept quiet.
Me: Please leave
Me: Then it’s fine, I’ll leave
Joseph: Please don’t leave
Me: Do you even really like me?
Joseph: Yes, I do
Me: No, you don’t
Joseph: I really do
Me: You are lying to me
Joseph: I am not
Me: If you think that you’d slap me and see tears in my eyes then you are wrong. You’ll never see me cry, Joseph
Joseph: I never want to see you cry
Joseph: I am not lying
Me: Stay away from me, Joseph
Rita walked in.
Rita: What happened here? Joshua told me about Alicia
Me: You’ve come at the right time. Clean the blood on the floor
Rita: What? Me?
Me: Yes, you
Rita: Who are you to tell me what to do? Are you crazy?
Me: Who am I? I am the only one you tr…
Rita: Okay fine, I’ll mop the floor
Joseph: Rita, are you hiding something from me?
Rita: No, why?
Joseph: How did you agree to clean the floor so easily?
Rita: (Smiles) Uhm… I… Because… Let it go, honey
Joseph: Okay, mop the floor then. I am going to bed
Me: Didn’t you come here to have something to drink?
Joseph: How can I drink after everything that happened here?
Me: Okay fine. Goodnight
Rita gave me a horrible look and came closer to me.
Rita: How dare you make me mop the floor?
Me: Do you want your husband to suspect us? I had to tell you to mop the floor
Rita: Oh, so you did this for me?
Rita is really a fool. I told her something foolish and she fell for it
Me: Yes, Rita
Rita: Thank you
Me: Pleasure, bitch
Rita: Did you just call me a bitch?
Me: Uhm… Sorry, I thought that I was talking to Alicia
Rita: Oh, okay then. I’ll get the mop and a bucket of water
Rita: Thanks for everything, Wame
Me: You are welcome
I also got up and went to my bedroom. Surprisingly I found Joseph in my bedroom. Well Warona is sleeping with Michaela and Kate.
Me: What are you doing here?
Joseph: I came to apologize
Me: Please leave my bedroom
He locked the door and kissed me.
Me: Stay away
Joseph: You are drunk
Me: I am not
Joseph: Don’t say anything, just kiss me
Me: No, leave me alone. You are a monster
Joseph: I am not. I am sorry for everything. I am rea…
I gave him a hot slap and left him speechless.
Part 22 – Giving Up Two
This Wame girl slapped me and it’s like I am not bothered at all. Yes, I am shocked that she slapped me because Rita never and I mean NEVER slapped me. Why am I not teaching her a lesson? Why am I just staring at her like a fool? Joseph, you are getting weak, what is wrong with you? Just teach Wame a lesson.
I pinned her against the wall and strangled her.
Me: HOW DARE YOU SLAP ME? ARE YOU…
She interrupted me.
Wame: I… You are… Hur-hurting me
I let go of her.
Me: You should apologize to me for what you did
Wame: Over… (Coughs) my dead body
Out of anger, I screamed and punched the wall. I am so angry at myself for giving in so easily. Why didn’t I just teach Wame a lesson? Why?
Well, I stormed out of her bedroom.
[The Next Morning]
I heard that a lot happened around here last night. Apparently Wame fought with Alicia and smashed a bottle of alcohol on her head. I really want to see Wame, she did a great job.
Warona and Kate are still sleeping so I quickly went to see Wame. I knocked on the door and she let me in.
Me: You look awful
Wame: I know
Me: What happened?
Wame: I am sick
Me: You are sick?
Wame: That’s what I just said
Me: What happened?
Wame: Alcohol happened
Me: (Laughs) You drank alcohol?
Wame: Yeah, last night and I think I might have slapped Joseph
Me: What? And you are still alive?
Wame: What do you mean?
Me: You slapped Joseph and he let you go?
Wame: I don’t know if I really slapped him, maybe I was dreaming
Me: Why did you even touch alcohol? Didn’t you tell me that you don’t drink alcohol?
Wame: Get me painkillers and stop asking me many questions
Me: Okay, I’ll ask aunt Nina for painkillers
I went to aunt Nina’s room.
Me: Morning aunt
Nina: Hey dear, how are you?
Me: I am fine thanks and you?
Nina: I am feeling better now
Me: Well Wame is also sick
Nina: What? What is wrong with her?
Me: Uhm… headache
Nina: Oh so are you here to ask for painkillers?
Nina: Okay, I’ll get you some
Me: Thank you
She gave me the painkillers.
Nina: What happened last night?
Nina: Warona slept with you and not with Wame
Nina: It has never happened before
Me: It has
Nina: Michaela, what’s going on?
Me: I don’t know what you are talking about
Me: Sorry, I have to go
I rushed to the door and left.
I got to Wame’s bedroom and gave her the painkillers.
Wame: Thank you
Me: You are welcome
Wame: How’s my sister?
Me: She’s okay, she’s still sleeping
Wame: So late? This is not like her. She always wake up early
Me: Well there’s first time for everything. You also woke up late
Wame: Just shut up
Me: (Laughs) Don’t ever drink alcohol, babe. It’s clearly not for you
Wame: You can say that again. Why do people even drink alcohol? I mean it’s bad
Me: (Laughs) For you
Wame: You keep on laughing, leave me alone
Me: I am sorry
Wame: I need to tell you something
Me: What is it?
Wame: Ayanda won’t be helping us anymore
Me: Why not?
Wame: Her father is Joseph’s friend
Me: Say what?
Wame: Yeah, it’s true
Me: How come?
Wame: I also don’t know because Ayanda’s whole family is from KZN and Joseph always lived here. I really don’t know what’s happening. I don’t know anything and I am done trying to help everyone
Me: Does Ayanda know that his father is also a monster?
Wame: I don’t know
Me: Then find out
Me: Call her
Wame: I don’t have a phone anymore
Me: What happened to it?
Wame: Joseph took it
Me: Oh, is that why you slapped him?
Wame: Yeah, you can say that. But did I really slap him? What if I was dreaming?
Me: (Laughs) You are such a fool
Wame: Thank you
Me: It’s not a compliment
Wame: I’ll throw you out of the window
Me: (Giggles) Sorry
Wame: Can I ask you something?
Wame: Are you okay?
Me: Yes, why?
Wame: I just told you that no one is going to help us
Me: I am fine, what can I do? There’s nothing I can do to change what’s happening so yes, I am fine
Wame: Yeah, there’s also nothing I can do to change what’s happening so I am done
Me: And I understand. You really tried so thank you
Wame: (Smiles) You are welcome
Me: Let’s go have breakfast with everyone
Wame: I’ll be right behind you, I need to speak to Joseph then bath my sister
Me: But your sister is sleeping
Wame: Yeah I’ll bath her when she wakes up
Me: Okay then. Go to Joseph’s room and ask him if you slapped him or not
Me: Don’t you really remember what happened?
Wame: I am not sure
Me: (Laughs) Alcohol is not for you, Wame
Wame: I’ve heard you, Michaela. Stop laughing at me
Me: Sorry. Okay, I am leaving now
Me: Oh, wait. Congratulations for smashing a bottle on Alicia’s head
Wame: (Smiles) Thanks
Me: (Smiles) You really did great
Wame: (Smiles) I know but thank you, babe
Me: Bye. I am really starving
Wame: As always
I just laughed and left.
I remember fighting with Alicia, I wasn’t drunk by then so yes, I remember smashing a bottle of alcohol on Alicia’s head but I don’t remember slapping Joseph. No, I remember slapping him but I was dreaming. He also strangled me. Oh Lord, am I even making sense? Well Joseph is the only person who can tell me what really happened last night.
I went to his bedroom and let myself in. I mean the door is not locked.
He was still in bed. I joined him under the blanket. He slowly opened his eyes and looked at me.
Me: (Smiles) Morning
Joseph: What do you want?
Me: What happened last night?
Joseph: Are you asking me?
Joseph: You slapped me
Me: So it wasn’t a dream?
Joseph: What? You slapped me now you are here pretending like it was a dream?
Me: Oh so it wasn’t a dream? I really slapped you and you strangled me. Okay, we are equal
He kept quiet.
Me: We are not even equal because you first slapped me
Joseph: I am sorry
Me: I am also sorry
Joseph: Let’s forget about everything that happened
Me: No problem. Now go to the bathroom and brush your teeth, your breath is bad
Joseph: (Smiles) Okay then
He got up and went to the bathroom.
I may have ran out of plans to get out of this place and help everyone but I know that I should definitely create a rift between Joseph and Rita. Joshua is next.
Well, Joseph came out of the bathroom and joined me in bed.
Me: Are we okay now?
Joseph: Yes, we are
Me: My head is literally spinning, I am never going to drink alcohol again
Joseph: Yes, alcohol is not for you
Me: Can I ask you something?
Me: Why did you let me go just like that?
Joseph: What are you talking about?
Me: I slapped you, right?
Me: So how come you didn’t teach me a lesson? Why did you let me go?
He kept quiet and started scratching his lower lip with his index finger. What a weird man he is.
To be continued…