Echoes of Loneliness
Part 13 – Pain Two
I can’t believe that I am about to lose my virginity to this cow. He looks very happy, I guess I’ve lost.
Thabo: Remember me?
Me: Yes, I do
Thabo: That’s good. Are you happy to see me?
Me: Why are you doing this?
Thabo: What am I doing?
Me: It’s nice, isn’t it?
Thabo: What are you talking about?
Me: I know that you are making me pay for the way I spoke to you on that day, please don’t. Just lie to Rita and say that you slept with me, it doesn’t really have to happen
Thabo: (Laughs) Are you listening to yourself?
Me: Yes, I am
Thabo: You are crazy
Me: Don’t you have a wife?
Thabo: How’s that your business?
Me: I guess you do, so why are you doing this? Does she even know that you are here?
Thabo: Do you want me to tell Rita that you are not doing what you came here to do?
Me: No
Thabo: Then keep quiet
I took steps backwards.
Me: Thabo, please
Thabo: Fine then, I’ll call Rita
He opened the door, I quickly ran to him and grabbed his hand.
Me: Please don’t tell Rita anything, I am begging you
Thabo: Mhmm, amazing. Are you really holding my hand?
I quickly let go of it.
Me: I am sorry
Thabo: (Smiles) Don’t apologize, I like it
He closed the door and locked it.
He started kissing my neck, I swear to God I wasn’t up for it. I just couldn’t do it.
Tears streamed down my face, I felt like killing myself right away.
Me: Thabo, please don’t do this
Thabo: Just keep quiet. Stop crying
Me: I really don’t want to do this
Thabo: You don’t have to do anything, I’ll do everything, you are still a newbie in this game so I’ll show you how it’s done
Me: I don’t want to lose my virginity, please
Thabo: I have something for you
I pushed him away and looked at him. My heart was really in pieces, I felt so much pain.
Me: What is it?
Thabo: Something that will help you
Me: What is it, Thabo?
Thabo: Powder
Me: What kind of powder?
He took out a small plastic from his pocket and it had cocaine.
Thabo: It will take away your pain, do you want some?
Me: No, I don’t
Thabo: Fine then but today I will still break your virginity
I kept quiet.
Thabo: You are really wasting my time, come here
He grabbed me with full force and undressed me. He then threw me in bed and also got undressed. I couldn’t stop crying, call me a baby but I don’t care, this is really rape.
Me: Thabo, please don’t do this
Thabo: Just keep quiet
Me: I’ll do whatever you say but not this, please
Thabo: I said keep quiet
He got on top of me. I was fighting him, I couldn’t just give in.
He got angry and injected me. From there I don’t know what happened because I remember I slowly fell unconscious.
[Thabo]
This girl is really trouble. I’ve never struggled to sleep with a girl before but she had to make me struggle, she was fighting me, can you imagine?
Well I gave her a strong drug through injection and she slowly fell unconscious. When she finally regains consciousness, she’ll not be a virgin anymore.
I did what I had to do, I broke her virginity. It wasn’t really great because she was like a dead person but it’s fine, next time I will enjoy everything. I’ll make sure that I get her hooked to cocaine. With that injection, I already made her blood taste some strong drug so she’ll soon ask me for cocaine. She’ll beg me and she’ll do as I tell her.
I phoned Rita to the room when I was done with Wame. She didn’t waste time, she came by. I unlocked the door for her, she came inside and sat down next to Wame.
Me: It’s done
Rita: Did you use protection?
Me: Yes
Rita: So what happened to her?
Me: I injected her
Rita: So she didn’t see everything that happened to her?
Me: Yes, she didn’t
Rita: Get dressed then. I’ll get Nina to come here so that she can bath Wame. She’s bleeding, you really broke her hymen. Great job, Thabo
Me: (Smiles) Thank you
I got dressed and gave Rita the money.
Rita: Thanks a lot
Me: Can I ask you for a favor?
Rita: Sure. Anything
Me: Can I also have her for next week? Don’t give her to anyone until I get her again next week
Rita: Okay, no problem but you will have to pay more
Me: I am willing to pay R1500
Rita: (Smiles) Really?
Me: Yes. I mean after breaking her virginity I’ll be the one to sleep with her again so money is not a problem
Rita: But you booked Alicia for next week
Me: So what?
Rita: You mean that you are willing to pay for two people?
Me: Definitely
Rita: Okay then, it’s not a problem. Joshua is bringing Alicia today so she’ll definitely be available by next week
Me: Great. I’ll have Alicia on Monday then from there I’ll leave this place with Wame. I’ll then bring her back on Friday
Rita: Hold on. So you will come here on Monday and sleep with Alicia then leave with Wame until Friday?
Me: Yes, that’s what I am saying
Rita: Wame is fresh meat so if you want her for five days you’ll have to pay more
Me: How much?
Rita: R3000
Me: And what if she’ll refuse to do what I tell her to do?
Rita: Then you’ll have to make her do it but do not beat her up. She’s my golden ticket you know
Me: Don’t worry, I won’t hurt her
Rita: That’s good then
Me: Do we have a deal?
Rita: Yes we do
Me: (Smiles) Thank you so much
Rita: You are welcome
Me: It’s really nice doing business with you
Rita: When you are happy, I am happy
Me: I’ll have to go now, my wife is waiting for me
Rita: (Smiles) Sure
I got up and left.
[Nina]
Rita called me to Room R1000 where Wame lost her virginity. I found Wame lying in bed like a dead person. My heart was really broken. I can’t believe that this really happened.
Me: I am here
Rita: Clean her
Me: Okay
Rita: Take this pill. Give it to her when she regains consciousness
Me: Okay
Rita: (Smiles) I am really happy so you can tell everyone to eat
Me: Sure
Rita: What’s wrong?
Me: Nothing
Rita: Are you sure?
Me: It’s not like you care, Rita
Rita: (Smiles) Yeah, you are right. I really don’t care
Me: Leave please, I’ll clean Wame
Rita: Okay. I’ll ask the security guard to carry her to her bedroom when you are done
Me: No need, I’ll do everything on my own
Rita: Wow. No problem. It looks like Wame is also your favorite
Me: It also doesn’t matter
Rita: Tell me, where’s Warona?
Me: She’s sleeping
Rita: Okay then. I am leaving
She got up and left.
Tears streamed down my face as I bathed Wame.
God, are you even there? Can you see what’s happening? Do you really exist? For how long will I pray with no answer? For how long will this go on?
God, you are really wicked. You are just like Rita. I am so mad at you.
What’s going to happen to this girl when she finally regains consciousness? God, you are really wicked.
Part 14 – Silence
[Few Hours Later]
I have been looking after Wame in my bedroom. Michaela, Kate and Warona are here with me. Warona could not stop asking me to wake up her sister.
Finally Wame regained consciousness. She looked so lost.
Warona: Hello, sister
Wame: Hey, baby
Warona: Food?
Wame: (Smiles) Yes
Me: Wame, are you hungry?
Wame: Yes, I am
Michaela: I’ll get you something to eat
Wame: Thank you
Michaela left with the kids.
Me: Do you remember what happened?
Wame: Yes
Me: Do you want to talk about it?
Wame: No
Me: Why?
Wame: I don’t want to talk about it, just let it go
Me: Aren’t you going to cry?
Wame: For what?
Me: Wame, please. This silence is going to slowly kill you
Wame: I am fine, let it go
Me: But…
Wame: If you don’t let it go, I will leave your bedroom
Me: Okay, don’t go. I am sorry
She kept quiet. Why can’t she just talk about what happened? Why can’t she at least cry? Her silence is not good at all
Me: Baby, how are you doing?
Wame: I already told you that I am fine
Me: Are you sure?
Wame: Yes
Me: You can talk to me about anything
Wame: Well there’s nothing I want to talk about
Me: Are you sure?
Wame: Yes
Me: Okay
Michaela came back with the kids.
Wame: Thanks
Michaela: You are welcome
Wame: Where’s Rita?
Michaela: She went out
Wame: I see
She started eating.
Me: Are you enjoying the food?
Wame: Yes, I am
Me: Okay
Wame: Won’t Rita kill me for eating?
Me: What do you mean?
Wame: Didn’t she say that we are all not going to eat until tomorrow?
Me: She changed her mind
Wame: Why?
Me: Because she’s happy again
Wame: What makes her happy? Did she get hold of Joseph?
Me: No. She’s happy because of what you did
Wame: I see
Kate: What did you do, Waro’s sister?
Michaela: Kate, keep quiet
Kate: No, I want to know
Me: She cleaned Rita’s office
Kate: Oh, but why?
Me: Because Rita is useless
Kate: (Giggles) Okay
Michaela: Girls, go and play with other children
Warona: Okay
Kate: Okay. Bye bye
Me: Bye darlings
They kissed Wame and left.
Wame: Michaela, where’s the phone?
Michaela: I have it with me
Wame: Thanks for the food, now give me the phone
Michaela: Okay, no problem
Me: Who are you calling?
Wame: I need to search for someone on social media
Me: Who?
Wame: I’ll be in my room if you need me
She got up and left with the phone.
Me: Michaela, please go after her
Michaela: Okay, I am going
Michaela left.
[Wame]
The last time I checked, Ayanda was not on social media anymore because of something bad she experienced online but it’s fine, I’ll search for her on social media to see if she’s not back again.
Michaela came after me. She closed the door and locked it. She then sat down next to me.
Me: When is Rita coming back?
Michaela: I don’t know
Me: Where exactly did she go?
Michaela: She went to the salon
Me: I see
Michaela: Who are you looking for on social media?
Me: Ayanda
Michaela: Who’s Ayanda?
Me: A friend of mine
Michaela: Do you think she can help us?
Me: Definitely
Michaela: Do it quick then
Me: Sure
I found Ayanda on Facebook and Instagram.
Michaela: Found her?
Me: Yes and it looks like she left me messages. She also left me her new number
Michaela: (Smiles) Wow, that’s amazing, right?
Me: Right. Let me quickly text her. I need to tell her everything
Michaela: Sure
I texted Aya and told her everything, from detail to detail. I also left her my new number.
Me: It’s done. I told her not to call because it’s not safe
Michaela: How about you call her now since Rita is not around?
Me: Okay, cool
My phone immediately started ringing. Wow, it’s Aya’s new number. Aya is calling me.
Me: It’s her
Michaela: Then answer the phone
Me: Cool
I answered the phone.
Me: Hey you
Ayanda: Wame, is that really you?
Me: Yes
Ayanda: I just read your message. Did you mean what you said?
Me: Yes
Ayanda: My goodness. I’ll have to do something
Me: I trust you
Ayanda: Did you really lose your virginity today?
Me: Yes, I did but I don’t want to talk about it
Ayanda: Why, Wame? Don’t do this to yourself
Me: Ayanda, I can’t talk for too long, Rita is probably on her way back to the orphanage
Ayanda: Okay. Tell me, how’s Warona?
Me: Warona is okay. She found herself a friend and a new mommy
Ayanda: Mommy?
Me: Yeah, her name is Nina. She’s a very good person, just like you
Ayanda: Please greet her for me, I am talking about Waro
Me: I will
Ayanda: I am sorry for everything. It’s all my fault
Me: What? Your fault? What do you mean?
Ayanda: I haven’t been on social media for so long. I lost my old phone then had to buy a new phone and a new sim card. I am really sorry
Me: I don’t blame you for anything. I also got a new phone and a new number
Ayanda: I really miss you
Me: I miss you too
Ayanda: I will do something to help you. I will have to tell my father everything. I can’t help you on my own
Me: I understand, babe
Ayanda: I am really sorry for everything
Me: It’s okay
Ayanda: You can talk to me about your feelings. How do you feel right now?
Me: I don’t know
Ayanda: Wame, you just lost your virginity by force so obviously you are very hurt
Me: I don’t want to talk about it
Ayanda: Why, babe?
Me: I’ve got nothing to say
Ayanda: You have a lot to say, Wame
Me: No, I don’t. Michaela wants to say hi to you
Ayanda: Who’s that?
Me: My friend
Ayanda: Why are you changing the subject?
Me: Michaela wants to speak to you
Ayanda: Fine, put me on loudspeaker
I gave Michaela the phone.
Me: Speak to Ayanda
Michaela: Okay. Hey Ayanda
Ayanda: Hey Michaela, how are you?
Michaela: I am okay thanks, and how are you?
Ayanda: I am also okay. I am sorry for what you people are going through
Michaela: It’s not your fault, don’t apologize
Ayanda: Did Wame talk to you about what happened?
Michaela: No, she doesn’t want to talk about what happened
Ayanda: Please tell her that silence is going to kill her. She must talk or at least cry
Michaela: You are right, Ayanda
Ayanda: Did she at least cry?
Michaela: She only cried before everything happened
Ayanda: So she didn’t cry after everything?
Michaela: No
Ayanda: Please talk to her. She’s been through a lot hey
Michaela: I will try, don’t worry
Ayanda: Thank you. Let me talk to her now
Michaela: Okay, you can. She’s sitting right next to me
Somebody knocked on the door.
Me: Michaela, hang up. There’s someone at the door
Michaela: Bye Ayanda, we have to go now
Ayanda: Okay cool. Please take care
Me: Bye Aya, thanks for everything
We hung up and hid the phone.
We went to the door and unlocked it. When we opened the door, Rita walked inside with Joshua and Alicia.
To be continued…