A Two Faced Lover
To err is human but to forgive is divine; forgiveness will never be old
fashion or outdated because it benefits both the offender and victim. Being
angry is part of life and not a bad thing either, but the problem starts
when you let the pain and grudge linger for too long because it might
develop into something more drastic than the initial reason you ever got
angry in the first place. As long as we still breathe the air we have never
for once been charged for, then you should never hold back forgiveness to
people that wronged you; talk more of when they realise their mistakes and
ask for your forgiveness. Most times, we have to go through a rough path in
life just so we can appreciate life more. Saint had to hit rock bottom
before realising how messed up and selfish he had been in the past. It took
the world to be against him before he could retrace his steps and make
amends with his past. In that sober moment of Saint’s life, it dawned on
him how empty and void his life had been and also how much he wanted to
commit to someone for the first time ever. The fact that Rose occupied a
significant space in his heart, made her very special from the rest. He
knew deep down that he was willing to try with her if she gave him a
chance. Well, too bad because Rose wasn’t even willing to render
forgiveness to him, talk more of being in any form of relationship with
The reply Rose gave to Saint sent chilled reactions all over his body. To
be fair, he knew the forgiveness process wasn’t going to be an easy one, as
he wasn’t expecting her to forgive him so easily; not after all the
horrible things he did to her in the past. The fact that Rose was tearing
up as she spoke to Saint made his heart melt like candle wax. He wanted to
wipe the tears off her eyes but she shifted her face and moved it towards
another direction to avoid any physical contact with him.
“Rose please I’m so sorry, I’m saying this from the depths of my heart.
Tell me anything you want me to do to make you forgive me and I promise to
do it in a twinkle of an eye. It’s been a rough couple of months but I
assure you that I’m a changed man now, I am deliberately working on myself
each day just to see to it that I have nothing to do with my past again. To
be honest, I think I owe you a big ‘thank you’ because you are the one that
brought out the best in me. You deserve everything good and I promise to
make it up to you. Please give me one last chance to make things right with
you” Saint soberly said. By the time he was done talking, Rose’s face was
covered with tears. She couldn’t hold back her emotions for some strange
reasons. It was hard for her to forgive a man that was responsible for so
many sad incidents in her life.
To make matters worst, Rose didn’t trust Saint anymore and even felt he was
lying all through. The fact that he lied about so many things in the past
had succeeded in killing any chances he had for her to ever trust him
again. Despite the fact that Rose could tell that Saint was truly sorry for
all the bad deeds he had done in the past, a part of her still felt like he
had an ulterior motive behind everything. Forgiving him was far from the
content in her bucket list, so it wasn’t going to be an easy task at all.
After being mute for a while, Rose finally spoke. “To be honest, I don’t
have anything else to say to you other than what I said before. I’ll leave
now, bye!” she managed to say and sadly walked away. As she went inside the
building, Saint still stood there looking at her. His heart was crushed and
his eyes were teary. It felt as though a huge part of him was taken away
and thrown into the river.
Feeling devastated, Saint sadly walked back to his car. For over an hour,
he sat inside his car thinking and couldn’t move. Rose was aware that he
still hadn’t left because she could see his car from her balcony. “Why is
he still here? Oh Lord, what exactly does this man want from me? I still
have a soft spot for him but will never make the mistake I made the other
time by falling for him. What does he want? I feel bad” she soberly said to
In as much as a big part of Rose wanted to go back downstairs and talk to
Saint, she just had to control herself by putting her emotions on check.
When a person goes through a rough path in life, it makes them stronger and
tougher than they used to. Rose had learnt not to be controlled by her
emotions so easily; so due to that, she wasn’t too moved.
After about an hour later, Saint finally drove off and headed home. On his
way home, he kept thinking of nothing else than Rose. He thought of how to
get her to genuinely forgive him and he began to look for ways to back his
words with actions. “How can I get her to see that I have truly changed and
that my intentions are genuine?” he wondered as he drove home. Saint knew
it wasn’t going to be easy to find his way back into Rose’s heart and win
her trust again, but he also wasn’t willing to back down either.
On the other hand, Rose was sober all night and couldn’t stop thinking
about all that happened earlier. Everything just felt weird because she
wasn’t expecting such at all. To be truly honest, Rose still felt something
for Saint in her heart. She hadn’t succeeded to completely erasing him from
her mind and also, the day they made love was still very fresh in her
memory. No man had ever handled her the way Saint did, so it was a bit
difficult for her to move on completely. Also, the fact that he came
apologising made matters a little worse because he had somehow found his
way back into her mind and thoughts.
Most people have a hard time moving on completely from a relationship they
were once in, because they still haven’t met anyone that rock their world
more than their Ex’s did. Pray never to find yourself in that
unsatisfactory and comparism bottomless pit because it usually leads to
incompleteness and unhappiness in any new relationship you enter.
Apparently, Rose was still not over Saint but held back her feelings
because he really hurt her in the past and that was quite a lot to forget
and move on from. She was afraid of being vulnerable again so as not to
regret it afterwards.
Days and weeks passed by but Saint never stopped apologising and trying to
make things right with Rose. He sent her a text message everyday,
expressing how much he was sorry and wanted to make things up to her. She
never replied any of his messages but that didn’t stop him from trying over
and over again.
Everyday at work, Rose received flowers from a flower company with a note
that read; “I’m sorry!”. The flowers never stopped coming and it made her
low-key happy even though she pretended otherwise. Her whole office was
filled with flowers that she even started giving some away to her
Due to Saint consistency in seeking for Rose’s forgiveness, her hard shell
began to crack gently and her heart suddenly melted. Whenever the flowers
came each day, she would smile till her cheeks hurt and it usually made her
day bright. She wanted to call him so bad but held herself not to do so. It
was hard for Rose to keep concealing her feelings but who could blame her
for holding back? not after all the terrible things Saint did in the past.
Asides trying to get Rose’s forgiveness, Saint had his new business to
nurture and take care of. It wasn’t too long before it started generating
good profits and his life started taking great shape again.
In as much as Saint’s business was now generating money, he knew that there
was still something missing in his life. Whenever he was alone, he realised
that he needed a companion; someone that would be his own and one that he
could love totally. At that point, he began to realise that he was ready
for commitment and no one was befitting enough to take that spot in his
life than the very woman that made him the changed man he now was; which
was Rose. Saint figured that if there was anyone that deserved the new
version of him, then it might as well be Rose because she really did love
him in the past.
All this contributed to the more reason why Saint wanted to win Rose back
by first seeking her forgiveness no matter what it took. Despite the fact
that she wasn’t even giving him any signal that the forgiveness was forth
coming, he still wasn’t discouraged. Everything remained the same till one
It happened that it was Rose’s birthday and Saint got to find out through
her social media account. He didn’t want to call or text because he knew
she wouldn’t respond the text nor pick up the call. After work that day, he
hurried down to a cake store and bought a nice cake with the inscription
“Happy Birthday, I am sorry”.
While at work, Rose had an awesome time with her colleagues and celebrated
her birthday with them. She retired home at close of work and wasn’t aware
that Saint had something up his sleeves.
Few hours after Rose returned home, she heard a knock on the door and
reluctantly went to see who was knocking. Immediately she opened the door,
her heart raced when she set her eyes on Saint standing there with a box of
At that moment, Rose’s heart was on a marathon race and Saint could hear
her breathe in and out. “Happy Birthday” he calmly said and handed the cake
over the her, “Thank you” she replied as she collected the cake.
After handing the cake over, Saint didn’t know what else to do so he
figured it was best he left. “I just came to give you that, happy birthday
once more” he said and was about to walk away when Rose stopped him. “Do
you want to stay so we can eat the cake together and maybe celebrate well?”
she asked in a low tone. Saint looked into her shiny eyes and nodded ‘Yes’
They entered inside and Rose placed the cake on the centre table and opened
the carton. When she saw the “I am sorry” inscription, her heart melted the
more and she didn’t know when tears fell off her eyes.
Immediately Saint saw the tears on her eyes, he gently got up from where he
sat and walked closer to her. “Please stop right there, don’t come too
close because you’ll just use and dump me again. Saint why are you doing
all this? Please stop if you know you are going to play with my heart
again. I beg you stop, please! I don’t have the strength for lies and
heartbreak” Rose said as she burst into uncontrollable tears. Saint became
sober and knelt down before her. He held her legs and sobbed bitterly too.
“I promise this time is different, I swear! It took me a long time to
realise that you were made for me. Please give me one more shot, I promise
you wouldn’t regret it. I need your forgiveness but also want you back.
Please Rose, I beg you!” he soberly said.
The atmosphere became filled with emotions and Rose didn’t know when she
cried and knelt down with Saint too. She held his head and looked into his
eyes and uttered those golden words “I forgive you”.
Immediately Rose said those words, Saint’s heart dropped and it felt like
his life began all over again. They looked into each other’s eyes as they
cried like little babies.
Unable to hold back the burning sensation that filled the air, Saint said
“Oh Gosh, I love you so much” and planted a hot klzz on Rose’s lips.
End of episode 7 ?